Appelle

I'm having a lot of feels at the moment. For one, Nas' advancing moves baffle me. I still haven't come to terms in trusting her. For the other, I'm always running into something -a particular name or its meaning- that I've been trying to stay away from.

So this "thing" had me these things:

- A dream early this week about the bearer, half-naked while probably putting stuff into a gym bag but I only saw through my peripheries;

- Opening my eyes from a nap directly staring at a jeepney that bears its meaning (*toot* of sage) last Thursday;

- Found self staring at spa's signage (Eegal *toot*) while the UV Express was waiting for the green light on the way to Friday-shift;

- Reading an article that mentions the name just a couple of minutes ago.

Said I'm staying away from this name not because it brings back bad memories. Actually, it's quite the other thing. However, before the other thing happens it brings confusion. It makes me confused because I usually run into it so I try to stay away from it. It's something that just stands out.

So now I decide to have my shift on another Susie Suh marathon.

Now Playing: Love is on the way

Late 28th year thoughts

Tic, tac; tic, tac.

Just a few more hours before the last day of my 28th year. I want to make it count. I want tomorrow to be a good start. I like fresh beginnings. There's something fascinating about getting started, stripped of the burdens of the past.

For the past couple of days, I've been thinking of listing the things that I am thankful of. I have to grateful. I want to develop that character.

And speaking of character development, I also want to develop something in particular and that is strength. I want to be strong in a lot of ways - physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. Basically in every area of my life.

I need to be strong because I've been reckoning in embarking into something. That also explains why Natasha Romanov is featured here. There's something about that character that reminded me of some things.

It'll be like a Jane Doe experience. Pardon the use of Ms. Anonymous slash Alice/Remi's "name" but it has nothing to do with Blindspot's plot. It's more of, if you (or I) were Jane Doe, how would you like to be known? Who would you like to be?

We all have that option, to bring in something new to our lives each day. I would like to do that. Today ends a year, a set of jubilee years. Tomorrow will be more than just a new day. Tomorrow will be the start of a new year, of another decade and another jubilee.

Btw, of course I have to sneak in Jane's photo. This one's pretty good because it's like she's moving forward without forgetting the past, just leaving it behind where it perfectly belongs.

Now Playing: Dana Williams & Leighton Meester - Dreams

World Mental Health Day

Following Western time, it's still October 10. Thus, it's still World Mental Health Day.

 

Special shout out to all the people helping those who are going through mental health issues. Happy World Mental Health Day!

Back into Learning

As I'm reviewing my references, I of course have to deal with the courses I'm enrolled in. I believe I have at least three but I am prioritizing one course in particular given that I haven't been up to date.

Checking on the course, I realized that I'm already 3 weeks late. Good heavens. Although I've already watched a video, it's just one of those video clips for the orientation part alone. Just the orientation. I feel like I am into a little trouble.

I want to finish the course and really maximize everything it has to offer, but I wonder how to play my part. Thankfully, our mentor gave us the following tips.

1. Follow the path.
2. Visualize your knowledge.
3. Learn spatially.
4. Learn socially.

I particularly need to heed tip number one and I am so glad that our mentor encourages a little deviation. He's most likely aware that there are people who are naturally deviant. Hello, NTs. Nevertheless, he suggests that we don't deviate a lot adding that going back on track is very important. Gotta remember that.

Spatial learning is pretty interesting. I'm not sure if I've been consciously aware about and of trying it. For this course, I'll definitely try it. I believe it's going to be good for the brain. As for learning socially, well let's cross the bridge when we get there.

For the mean time, what's greatly bothering me is the revelation of how much time I'd have to spend for the course.

As an INTP, there's really no problem allotting time in learning. The problem is my time limitation. I have other things to do and I'm already 3 weeks late. Soon it'll be 4 weeks. How am I going to deal with that?

By the way, pardon the Blindspot .gifs used. Season 2 just premiered and I'm still not getting over it. It's too much to handle, the feels and thoughts and everything. I'm too carried away.

Note: All .gifs are from http://blindspot-gifs.tumblr.com/. Copied and used without permission. o_o

Random Post Blindspot Thoughts

It feels very much like how Jane came out of that bag at the Time Square. Well, at least after she recovered from the blinding lights. It's like facing a fork wondering which way to go. It's pretty confusing. Which is right, which is not? Which is safe, which one is a trap?

There're a whole lot of skills set available for survival but things don't seem to get right. It's never that sweet spot feeling. Sometimes I wish I could put on INTJ's decisiveness and make that decision then immediately work on it. Although I have INTJ tendencies, it's that trait that I can't or could hardly put on. The doubts, perhaps even fear or anxiety, just keep holding back. But more than the doubt, it just never feels right.

And yes, it brings me back to Jane Doe. Although our situations are not the same, there's a similarity. There's something that I could relate with her. Too much blindspot. Blindspot.

Well, I am making the connection because I missed Blindspot a lot. I can't wait for episode 2 but I'm glad to take the time. The season 2 premiere was intense enough.

I can actually work things through pouring everything whenever possible, but it's the lack of eureka that keeps me from doing so. Until I firmly believe in something, everything else is clouded.

Something's been bugging me since late last month. I tried to "close" it because it's consuming much of my "thinking time" but it's been pretty persistent. I've actually made an attempt to close it a couple of years back but it wasn't successful. I'm hoping I could close things properly, if ever they need to be closed. And it'd be great if I could tell which way to go if I see that fork again.

Now Playing: Susie Suh - Give Me Heart

Tu me manques...

I can't wait for September. I miss Blindspot and The Blacklist. The next/latest seasons will premiere on September 14 and 22, respectively.

Just three weeks to go to finally see Jane Doe, Kurt Weller, Patterson, Dr. Robert Borden, and the rest of the NY gang.I miss 'em all but mostly these ones I named.

Speaking of Patterson and Borden, I think they are cute together. I'd like them to end up together. That'd be sweet. But that would be a conflict, since Dr. Borden is the resident psychiatrist of the unit. Basically, Patterson and the rest of the gang are his patients.

But they're just so cute together. Perhaps they can just be close friends. Very close friends that you'd wonder if there's something romantic or if it's just plain cryptic platonic. The main story is not about them anyway so there shouldn't be a big deal about these two. A hint or two, or more, will be fine. It'd be enough to warm the fandom.

So while waiting for the next couple of weeks, I'm banking on what Patterson said.

Between Blindspot and The Blacklist, I'm not sure which one I love more. But do I really have to choose one over the other? I'd sayd these two top the list of series that are so dear to me. At least recently. I think Prison Break is still capable of putting up a fight. Actually, it doesn't even have to. It's among my all-time favourite TV series.

So, for The Blacklist... I wonder what's in store for everyone especially the Keens, particularly Liz and this so-called Russian identity. Truth be told, I'm not buying what Alexander Kirk said. No. 

There's just no enough evidence and not enough to support Kirk's claim. And I think it's easier to buy the thought that Jane is Taylor but believing that is just too much of a history manipulated. So technically, it's something unlikely too.

I just read this transcript of interview with The Blacklist director Michael Watkins. Of course he was talking about the show, and more. He said asomething about James Spyder. Interesting. Very interesting. It just reminded me of an IG post by PJ Pascual leading me to a "Scarlett moment," which I'll write about that later.

Now I wonder if I am on the right blog as I write this. Perhaps I'll make a copy on my other blog. Yes, I should do that.

Blindspot pegged

Just 7 weeks to go until Blindspot season 2 premieres and I so cannot wait.

I've been trying these past days to peg some characters from Blindspot though I mix them with those from The Blacklist. My specs are at default as they are inspired by Tom Keen's. I just can't wait to see Jane again and the rest of the NY gang.

Last night I felt like I'm getting close to achieving Jane's hair (see photo). I've been trying to. But I'll try to do better next time. And spare some more time too.

Thinking about Blindspot and The Blacklist even at work usually helps me get through the shift, especially lately as I'm on graveyard.

Countdown to Blindspot season finale

An afternoon break post...

Just five nights to go and I can see Weller and Jane again. Five nights to go before the season finale of Blindspot. I am both excited and anxious that I'm not sure how to deal with it.

Episode 22 was heart-breaking enough, because of the plot events and because it's a countdown to the end of season 1, so I am pretty sure that the season finale would be more intense. I've also read a tweet saying or quoting Jaimie Alexander about what to expect for episode 23.

Just the thought of what awaits on Tuesday night is driving me crazy.

This is the trouble when you're watching a series on "real time" because you have to follow the schedule. Sheez.

I am going to miss Patterson and that Psychiatrist as well as Tasha and Reade. Of course, Jeller's already given.

The Patterson motivation

I'm glad I pushed myself today to get up and get out of the condo and go to work. I've been not feeling well since Sunday, actually for days now, and I've already missed work yesterday. To miss another day would be detrimental to my health in every aspect.

To effectively push myself, I had to remember Patterson. FBI Special Agent Patterson from Blindspot. We are similar in a number of ways, like having work as a perfect diversion for whatever. 

I woke up this morning but got back to Lala-Land as my stomach was aching. I was still still not feeling well when I got out of bed, which was already an hour past 2 o'clock. But I knew I had to move then I'd be set in motion afterward. It happened. Thankfully. I arrived past 3PM but still...

Way to go for people like me and Patterson!

Too much blindspot

When you're having headache and feeling dizzy, which both seem to impress a pending migraine, at the same time trying to figure out the cause as well as how to end it yet things go out of hand, things get out of hand.

It's the same as trying to figure out some things in your life. You hit something but it's not what you're really looking for. Still, it's something you can't just dismiss.

If it were like a Blindspot situation, it's the same as finding criminals some even underground and tracing back in time. Unfortunately, you haven't gotten to the core of it. You eventually find out or got told how those "tattoos" were inked on your entire body but there were still questions. You got to know some key players, but they're not the big fish.

So it feels like these physical discomforts tell me they are more than what my pain receptors have caught up with. No longer sure if if it's tension headache, a pending migraine, or what have you got. It's like my nociceptors are having the same dilemma that Jane Doe has. Identity crisis.

Having lots of endorphins would definitely ease the situation. And since I'm making an analogy with Blindspot, it'd be wonderful if I get some assistance from Weller on having my favourite neurotransmitters.