2026 Initial Update

Haven't written much these past months on my blogs. Yes, I do have more than one. For this domain, it's about random personal experiences. In another, it's about movies or dramas I've watched. I haven't updated that one as well.

The past quarter of the past year was quite bumpy with frequent hiccups and mostly trying to stay around. I'm still trying to figure out how to cheat my way out should I experience that again, which I pray I don't anymore. It's still vivid in my head the memories of that night when I had to squeeze out reasons not to give in.

Thankfully, I am in better headspace these past weeks. And that reminds me and makes me wonder if there were traces of that abyss residue when my 中医 医生 checked on me.

I should update more often.

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Is this my karma?

This was written back in April 2nd but I wasn't able to publish it, and I can't remember why. It's been months and looking back I don't seem as bothered as I was when I was writing this. Even so, I thought I should post it.

Someone's silence is bothering me tremendously. Then I looked back on the times I may have been "silent" with someone particular. Defending myself, it was because that person's messages were unimportant for me. And at times when I was upset with this person, just turned out *toot* isn't important to me. Unimportant enough for me to bother responding.

Then relating that to my current situation, I realized that it should be no big deal. I'm just not important to that person. And I haven't merited enough respect from him to at least get an acknowledgment. And as someone who doesn't push myself to anyone, we'll leave it as that.

I told myself weeks ago to only communicate things professionally. Nothing that can be considered even on the level of being acquaintance. But I didn't follow that rule, so here I am having this mental stress. But I guess it's good to know where I really stand.

This person I was talking about doesn't affect me like before. I'm having a sense of mental freedom and I would like it to keep going. It's always a great feeling to be able to think, speak, and act without reservations.

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