These past days have brought me roller coaster of emotions. I'm honestly having a hard time mastering them. And since yesterday I think, I've been preoccupied with a particular recurrence. Today felt like a standstill because I know I'm not in my right mind concerning this preoccupation, thus I need to soothe myself.
But my troubles have been too persistent that I even thought of a date to execute something. And such date is not too far ahead. And when I wondered why I chose that date, I could only think of anger and grief. I'm too angry with my recent decisions and actions that I want to severely punish myself. As for grief, it's because I've been asking and praying for something related to that day yet it remains stuck on me. Or rather, I am stuck with something I've been praying for God to take away. It scares me and brings me great sorrow yet it lingers that I thought it'd be best to take things into my hands and remove what I have real control of.
I was close to finalizing a decision this afternoon, even if it's not that date. But I remembered GOT7's comeback.
January 20, 2025. It's their second comeback since leaving JYPE, and the first after JJ Project completed their mandatory civil service. I don't want to miss that comeback.
How amazing that for the nth time, GOT7 is the reason I have to stay alive. Though the previous times were because of individual members. I remember when I processed BamBam for his Departure formalities, I felt reborn. Alive and energetic. Amusing how personally relatable his RIBBON song has become.
So yes. I have to stay literally alive for and until GOT7 comeback next month.
Now Playing: GOT7 - Ecplise
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