Medical Check Up

It's my second day calling in sick. Well, for today I said it's EL. Because I had to consult a doctor. My migraine had been crazy. And just this afternoon, a quarter before 1pm, it seems there's some issue with my eyes. A new headache. I hope it's just a mismatch of the specs because my eye grade have gone lower. I wish. I pray.

According to my HMO liaison, neurology isn't included in my plan. Our plan with the bureau, most likely. So I went to see an Ophthalmologist. He said my eyes had some strain and recommended eye drops. But when he asked for the pain scale, he decided to endorse me for MRI as I answered 7 and above. Also told him that I would really love to remove my head.

Creatinine test is a requirement before MRI. Because doctor's order for the latter includes contrast. The kidneys have to be able to filter it out.

So yeah, Creatinine done. Results will be out before midnight. As  for my MRI, it's scheduled this Thursday.

Now Playing: One OK Rock - Heartache

Migraine

Been having migraine since last night. It's been on and off. I thought it's because of the summer heat, but I had the suspicion that it's because of the scent I am wearing. It's a body spray I used to love pre-pandemic. I check the store last month but it's out of stock. Then I came back last week and saw it's on stock so I bought a bottle.

Seems like they changed the formulation because it's stronger and has a CN1 effect that really strongly lingers. Must be the inflation, because there's no significant price increase. It's sad because I really loved its scent.

That, or my olfactory nerve has become a bit sensitive.

My migraine last night night was really troublesome that I had to make notice of SL for today. It's annoying because I really wanted to go to work. But I had to make early notice because I was afraid I might not wake up in time to do so. My attendance this quarter has been troublesome and very far from ideal.

I guess I have to use another scent. Or maybe I'll just spray this one on my clothes a night before wearing them. Yeah, I think I'm gonna try that.

Now Playing: TAPE RE: LOAD IN MANILA

Sight Interrupted

The plan to write a longer blog entry got interrupted, that I even forgot what I was supposed to write about, because I encountered the sun today. It's so bright I can sense migraine from afar.

I have to leave.

Now Playing: Dean Martin - Ain't that a Kick in the Head

Cracking Headache

My head is still aching as if I'm having my skull cracked into half. It's been like this since before lunch. Actually, it's been days. Thankfully it's not something that hits 24/7. I can't even imagine what that would feel like.

I wish I could leave early but I have reports to make. This headache is only making my tasks troublesome. How annoying.

Though it's been days albeit on and off, I still don't think it's migraine. Or is it? Perhaps a mix migraine.

Whatever it is, I just want to rest in a cool dark place without any disturbance.

Migraine again.

Things are getting too much I don't know what to do anymore, which to take first and next.

I've been having migraine and low-grade fever for days, perhaps even weeks. I just want to do what INTPs do best. But days are running and counting. I even unintentionally skipped worked yesterday because of migraine and fatigue. Migraine and a particular stressor just had me collapsing.

Btw, I still have some migraine so good luck.

Now Playing: Susie Suh - Lucille

Migraine risks

Nx Dx: Alteration in sleep pattern r/t changes in ADL secondary to reassigned work schedule

Now that got me wondering. Will Ms. Walde (my college professor) accept such diagnosis? Losh!

Well it's true, I am having changes in my sleep pattern, not to mentioning difficulties actually sleeping. As a result, migraine paid me a visit. It was last Friday when I was alone during the graveyard shift. Good heavens. My head felt like it could split into pieces. Migraine headaches are just wicked.

Pain scale? 12/10. And I am one who's supposed to have a high pain tolerance. Well, I usually back off when it's stomachache and/or migraine. They're witches!

Worried  that I'd have another migraine episode during the coming days, I decided to ditch work on my Saturday/Sunday shift. Weekends are usually a breather so I thought I could 'leave' my shift partner, lest I get to be absent during a weekday. Heavens forbid! Besides, my lack of sleep is getting worse that I'd be at risk of going by my id, kind of acting on "basic instincts," which is unhealthy both to myself and to anyone I might show this to. I'm a choleric-melancholic and an INTP with 1-3% chances of going INTJ.

I kind of recovered now but I still need to sleep.

Now Playing: Susie Suh - Shell

Massive Attack

I thought I was having migraine yesterday because I almost got knocked out from my headache. Perhaps I really got knocked out because I fell asleep for intermittent periods of time during my taxi ride from the condo to Pasig. Never mind that I texted no one that I was riding a cab, and obviously neither the plate number of the cab I was riding.

My headache was killing me that I even wanted to go back home. I was still in Buting when I thought about it. The pain persisted until during the service though there was a moment of peace.

Unfortunately, the pain returned around 8PM. I was having dinner at Slice. At first I wondered if it was the tuna, as I was having a tuna sandwich, or the red velvet because of its dairy content. I later realized that it was my eyes. I wasn't also having photo sensitivity. Well, I only had one photo sensitivity experience during my many migraine attacks. For now, it's time to change glasses. Can't wait for pay day.

I'm having the same headache on my left frontotemporal area while writing this blog entry. Thinking about it, I'm wondering if the 'sleeps' I had yester noon were actually moments of syncope. Poor head.

But then I wonder, is it possible that I am having migraine and tension headache at the same time? I have to visit my neurologist again. It's been years.

Now Playing: Susie Suh - Why

Too much blindspot

When you're having headache and feeling dizzy, which both seem to impress a pending migraine, at the same time trying to figure out the cause as well as how to end it yet things go out of hand, things get out of hand.

It's the same as trying to figure out some things in your life. You hit something but it's not what you're really looking for. Still, it's something you can't just dismiss.

If it were like a Blindspot situation, it's the same as finding criminals some even underground and tracing back in time. Unfortunately, you haven't gotten to the core of it. You eventually find out or got told how those "tattoos" were inked on your entire body but there were still questions. You got to know some key players, but they're not the big fish.

So it feels like these physical discomforts tell me they are more than what my pain receptors have caught up with. No longer sure if if it's tension headache, a pending migraine, or what have you got. It's like my nociceptors are having the same dilemma that Jane Doe has. Identity crisis.

Having lots of endorphins would definitely ease the situation. And since I'm making an analogy with Blindspot, it'd be wonderful if I get some assistance from Weller on having my favourite neurotransmitters.

Extended Friday Discomfort

5 December 2015, 06:47 PM

I'm glad I already took a bath before I slept last night, fearing that I might wake up late the following day. I was right. I woke up late today, not intentionally though, about almost 2 hours past my time-in at work.

Since yester-noon, most likely during mid-afternoon, I wasn't feeling well. I was having a migraine episode, complete with nausea and headache. It's the former that's really annoying. And it bothered me too because I've been wondering if I was being withdrawn from people. I hope it was just a "typical busy person that needs to alone" look. I wasn't that busy though I was working on some things unlike the day before yesterday, which had my adrenaline going hyperactive. My anxiety that day was mainly because I felt pressured to complete and submit my daily deliverable before leaving the office, which follows office-hours unlike the other department I used to be in. I left the office on Thursday about five minutes past 7 o'clock.

Not really sure if Thursday affected my Friday afternoon. If so, it seems late. Unfortunately, my Friday discomfort was prolonged. As of writing, for at least 2 hours now, I'm having that uneasy feeling. I would love to just tuck in bed but there are things to do, for work and for Sunday although I'm just going to buy presents.

I will be away next week, being "locked" in a hotel because of a seminar/training, so I need to be at home - Antipolo - tonight so I can prepare my stuff. I also need to be back in Makati on Sunday afternoon because we have an early call-time for Monday.